Taking a hiatus from the blogsphere.

I’m not a blogaholic in the first place.

But theres just too many things running through my mind that keeps me from sleeping these days.

Things in my life which can only be settled between God and me.

I’m not trying to sound like some emo kid nor do I crave for any attention saying all these.

It’s just, I’m too individualistic and certain things really need to be given a second thought.

God, family, salvation, reading, writing, media, music, traveling, finances…….

 

 

 

Taiwan trip

Having some time alone eating my cereal while waiting for my day to begin. At the moment, I’m sitting in the living room of our apartment in Taiwan and the rest of the group are all knocked out, sleeping.
I’m flying back to Singapore today and as much as I’ll miss Taiwan for its food and shopping, I think I’m ready to take on new challenges back in Singapore: ministry wise or studies wise.
It was a well deserved break and I did so many things, went so many places, that i probably will never have another chance to in life. I love the weather in Taiwan. It was about 10degrees the past two days. Freezing, but I loved it!
Anyway just some reflections throughout this trip, Becoming a Godly woman of God requires much international effort. I really want to live my life pure before God and make sure I don’t compromise God’s standards and my own principles in the face of shitty situations.
It is so easy to compromise, why? Because nobody is watching. But God is.
And I dont need to prove anything to anybody or come across as frwaking impressive, because all that is just skin deep. I love my friends, I love my annoying family members, but I got to learn to put God first and love Him fully first. So far from becoming the woman God wants to shape me into, but I’m renewed and ready to embark on this fearful yet presence filled path.
Have a blessed day!
Just a shutout to my Taiwan group, if you’re ever reading. Thankyou for these 8days, neverexoected us to grow so much closer.(:

Heyhey!

I’m back and idk if anyone reads, but it doesn’t matter to me.(:

Wanna talk about a few stuff. My tweets are always real time and always whatever I feel, learned of at that moment. I don’t always tweet christianity related tweets, but when I do, I always wonder what my other non-christian followers will think.

Its not an issue of being ashamed of Christ, but an issue of how others, non believers would judge me. How I’m acting all “holy” and righteous. And if I ever come across like that to you- my friend, then I’ve failed living as a christian.

As much as I’m afraid of all those behind the back talking about me etc, I still tweet whatever I believe in strongly-which involves my faith because, despite everything-I try my best not to lose my head and heart,  I still know how insignificant the thoughts and views of others are.

Don’t get me wrong, I value each one of you as friend, but sometimes I mean think about it, if everyone’s opinion were to bother you that much, tell me how are you going to live your life well?

I’m still afraid of people judging me, but I just gotta prove and backup whatever I tweet with my life, through my actions. And I’m still learning how to “filter” opinions from people who genuinely care for me, and from people whom..I should say just wanna comment?

Every christian is called to be different, different from the world. I have absolutely no intention of coming across holy or whatever to you, I just..want to stand strong and firm in something I believe in. Because when you don’t, you actually fall for nothing as well.

I just, I want, I’m learning and trying to live a “to the best of my ability” Christ-called life, because I’m convinced Christ is worth it.

Not sure if it was right to post this, but I don’t suppose alot of people reads this–so I guess its fine.)

 

I shouldn’t be blogging now. I have 3 major major assignments due this week and 1 more next monday.

After 20th, I’m officially done with year1 of poly.

But proscrasincation seriously skills, I proscrasinate so much I don’t know to help myself.

But anyway, I’ve been skipping so many lessons ever since term4 started. And no- its not because I overslept or what. I mean seriously, who oversleeps when lessons starts at like what 10am, 12pm? Lol, I’m always up and probably already started on my work while you’re on your way to school.

And no, I’m not encouraging people to skip lessons. I just..don’t understand why I need to go sch, when all I do is sit down, get my attendance marked and start doing my own assigments. I mean I can jolly well do them at home ya?

It just happens for some modules.

I mean all I wanna say is that it was a choice, a decision not to go school. Which brings me to a point of you get to make a choice at almost everything in life.

Don’t tell me you’re so tired, when all you did was to use fb till very late and hence slept late. So active on fb. I mean seriously, how does that concern us that you slept late because you were surfing fb, you’re not even getting any work done.

So I’m sorry, I don’t understand it if you’re going to tell me you’re so freaking tired-didnt sleep well, when I don’t see any work you;ve done.

It a decision what, like me, if I choose to surf the internet and not get any work done, then I would have to pay the price for a bad grade or whatever the cost.

It all boils down to your discipline and the choices you make. I really really don’t understand people who say they can’t do this, can’t do that..when you don’t even pay attention in modules when the lecturer is teaching skills.

Sorry, I really cannot empathise on that point.

And yes, its a venting post. I’ll be fine. just after this week is over.

 

The moment the lift reached 7th floor, loud voices can already be heard.

As I’m walking towards the front door, the familiar sight of many pair of shoes can already be seen.

Massive amount of dishes on table, aunt rushing in and out of kitchen, uncle and aunties talking at the top of their voices in Cantonese.

The dialect which I grew up with, am comfortable in using and listening to, though not very proficient in it. Unfortunately, my generation is probably the last batch to be ever using Cantonese. My nieces and nephews don’t understand any Cantonese. I grew up with my favourite popo, the one who taught my Cantonese. I really wish somehow…I can still hear people speaking in Cantonese many many years later. I don’t want this to be lost just like that.

My younger nieces and nephews are all gathering around in a room, playing with toy cars(for the boys), the girls are playing some lego stuff. The silbling related boys fought( I dont know over what) and ended up crying. They avoided playing with each other for the rest of the night.

My youngest nephew is playing and trying(note the word trying) to bounce a ball by himself. Laughing and speaking in gibberish which only his mum understand. He knows how to say “Ball, mummy, daddy..” Thats all I guess. He seems to enjoy playing by himself so much. Very very cute sight. Hes so clever, pushed back the stool he sat on to its original place after pushing it somewhere eles, pass the bag which contains his milk bottle to his(wants his mum to take the bottle out for him), took his own shoes from very far away and brought it inside the living room to wear cause he knows they are leaving. All these for a mere 1 year + boy. I don’t think I was so conscious at that age.

The younger girls wans back their toy, which they brough from home. but another nephew steps in to say that it was here for a long time(meaning-he saw the toy there for a long time and it belongs to this house, they didnt bring it from home)

My uncle looking and smiling to himself as he watches his grandson(my youngest nephew) attempting to bounce the ball(which of course leads to him “hitting the air”, which was really really cute.

———–forgot how to save as draft. to be continued soon. suddenly very sleepy.———-

 

 

 

So so sick of poly life..

This date 4 years ago,

I lost someone very dear to me.

9th January 2012.

3 years have gone by like that.

Popo, I want you to know that I miss you alot.

Sorry, I just really am too lazy to blog. If anyone’s reading anyway, that is(:

Anyway, I suppose this should be my last post till maybe feb? Or my next holiday.

I have 3 major assignments due end jan-early feb. Thats about 5-6 weeks away.

Hardcore filming and aftereffects.

And really, arghhh I’ve never done this..in terms of blogging out negative emotions towards a certain person. But really, please please do your part in the assignments. You are in poly already dear, please please step up and take responsibility for your work. Please please. I don’t understand how you want to cut yourself some slack and still get the same grades as the rest who put in so much hardwork, in covering all the work that you are suppose to share with us. Please, please.

Argh..this whole month, two months, will be so so challenging. God, let me stay close to you.

And I will still make effort to read despite all the deadlines for all my assignments! Okay, goodbye!

2012 is going to be great!

 

Persistent

I will learn to be persistent in my requests to God.

I believe my mum will come to know of Your love.

A few months, a few years. A decade(I hope not), I must learn to be persistent in prayer.

Because only when I pray, I am that much closer to You.